Oh, What A Wonderful Holiday.

Not only dealing with school and this shitload I have to catch up on...

I also have to deal with my fathers ignorant crude attitude towards my Christmas phone call. Douche bag wouldn't know morals if it hit him where the sun don't fucking shine. I'm his daughter, and you know what I get for giving him a ring just to be respectful, maybe mend shit up? I get a mistakenly answered phone followed by a "Should I answer it," where the fuck were you born? I'm you goddamn daughter and you have to question weather you should answer my call? Oh yeah because your with your oh so picture perfect "family." Did you forget your REAL family is down here. You know, your mom and brothers. He doesn't even realize that Giselle could pack up her shit and leave tomorrow, but his mom and brothers will always be there. So he's more concerned for Giselle. Go fix your priorities, stop worrying about the rest of the world. If they really cared they'll be there when your done getting your life together. Oh and the phone call is also followed by a "What do you want?" What the fuck do I want? I want you to act like the goddamn father you claim to me, I want you to accept responsibility for your dumb mistakes, I want you to man up and start being a fucking father to your kid. But no, I was a good kid, I stayed shut, and hung up. He really has no idea what hes getting into. Because sweetie in January, hes about to get the surprise of his goddamn life, he'll wish he could go back and fix it.

Enough about my so called father, Schools fucking hell.
And don't take this like I don't like white people or I'm a racist or some shit.
Because sweetheart, if I was I'd be a lot more disrespectful.
Regardless, its just everyone whose anyone just wants attention, they're fake. And the second they see a new kid to befriend, they drain them into this some kind of "friend bond". You say two things about yourself, and by lunch the entire school knows everything. My friendship is just another number for them. They feel better knowing they every face they see in the hallways knows them. They're so fake, and act so stuck up. Like no one could ever measure up to anyone. They drink they're panzy ass liquor, with they're so called "amazing" weed. Shit I'm sure you can't even get a high off it.
Im here for school, not for backstabbing bitches who think they're gunna take advantage of the new girl just cus she doesn't know this from that. I'm two fucking steps ahead of you. So go right ahead, don't think ill fall into your little trap like every other fake bitch in this school.

I just need to get the fuck outta of this place asap. I'm not trying to sound ungrateful, but for the last two weeks i have got the sleep a 15 year old girl should be getting. I wake up and fight the insomnia to sleep. Sometimes I have to pace till my legs fall off just to get past the fucking headache. My life has been utter hell for two weeks. I need a break. And thank god for the next week I'm spending it with Keri and Kenneth <3

My Oh My.

My life as we speak? Is going downhill. I don't really know why I created this blog. I guess just to vent, write whats on my mind, and share with the world these pointless words I write. But anyways, back to the point. I'm obviously not going to share how I got in trouble, or what had happened. But lets just say it was probably bad enough for my Uncle to shun me from his life and our family. Quoting him, You're a disgrace to this family, I don't give a shit about your life anymore Maybe he was overreacting. Other people do. But in my opinion I don't blame him for being mad, But he went a little over the top. Not so fun seeing everyone around you getting mad.
Besides that, my life still sucks. I know I'm probably overreacting, but I hate coming home knowing me and my father will probably get into an argument, I hate showing up to school knowing everyone around me probably looks down upon me. So I've made a decision, I'm going to move in with my mother. She lives about an hour away from where I live now. Yeah, I have a boyfriend and a bestfriend I'm leaving behind. But this is temporary, in April my mother is planning on moving down here so I can still have my friends with me. I know, its pretty crazy and stupid, considering the process will take a month or so to do. And another 2 weeks for me to get moved in and situated in school. I just can't live here anymore. Its hard, too hard. I need my mom now more than ever. I haven't lived with her in 7 years and I think its called for some mom time. I know, everyone says I'm coming back! and most likely don't. Thats probably my biggest fear, because, it may be cliche to say, I love my boyfriend, more than anything in this world. He's really turned my life around, and brought me up on my feet when I needed him the most. And Of course I love my best friend, Keri. Shes my best friend, for a year now on Dec 16 (yeah we have a date, shh :x) And she's been there for everything, shes never judged me for anything I've ever done, and no matter the situation she helped, even if it meant having to walk miles, or spend all the money she's got. My mom said she'll take me down every weekend we're free to see them, and any breaks we have in between, So I don't necessarily mind, but I'm scared eventually I'll drift from both and lose them. They've really made huge impacts on my life and I couldn't lose two of the most important people in my life. They both have promised not to leave or walk away and they'll be there till the very end, but everyone worries a little, don't they?
Well this is my choice, its for me. I need to get my life in order instead of having my father throwing it in my face every time I mess up.
I'm going to be on my way now. :*