My life as we speak? Is going downhill. I don't really know why I created this blog. I guess just to vent, write whats on my mind, and share with the world these pointless words I write. But anyways, back to the point. I'm obviously not going to share how I got in trouble, or what had happened. But lets just say it was probably bad enough for my Uncle to shun me from his life and our family. Quoting him, You're a disgrace to this family, I don't give a shit about your life anymore Maybe he was overreacting. Other people do. But in my opinion I don't blame him for being mad, But he went a little over the top. Not so fun seeing everyone around you getting mad.
Besides that, my life still sucks. I know I'm probably overreacting, but I hate coming home knowing me and my father will probably get into an argument, I hate showing up to school knowing everyone around me probably looks down upon me. So I've made a decision, I'm going to move in with my mother. She lives about an hour away from where I live now. Yeah, I have a boyfriend and a bestfriend I'm leaving behind. But this is temporary, in April my mother is planning on moving down here so I can still have my friends with me. I know, its pretty crazy and stupid, considering the process will take a month or so to do. And another 2 weeks for me to get moved in and situated in school. I just can't live here anymore. Its hard, too hard. I need my mom now more than ever. I haven't lived with her in 7 years and I think its called for some mom time. I know, everyone says I'm coming back! and most likely don't. Thats probably my biggest fear, because, it may be cliche to say, I love my boyfriend, more than anything in this world. He's really turned my life around, and brought me up on my feet when I needed him the most. And Of course I love my best friend, Keri. Shes my best friend, for a year now on Dec 16 (yeah we have a date, shh :x) And she's been there for everything, shes never judged me for anything I've ever done, and no matter the situation she helped, even if it meant having to walk miles, or spend all the money she's got. My mom said she'll take me down every weekend we're free to see them, and any breaks we have in between, So I don't necessarily mind, but I'm scared eventually I'll drift from both and lose them. They've really made huge impacts on my life and I couldn't lose two of the most important people in my life. They both have promised not to leave or walk away and they'll be there till the very end, but everyone worries a little, don't they?
Well this is my choice, its for me. I need to get my life in order instead of having my father throwing it in my face every time I mess up.
I'm going to be on my way now. :*
Besides that, my life still sucks. I know I'm probably overreacting, but I hate coming home knowing me and my father will probably get into an argument, I hate showing up to school knowing everyone around me probably looks down upon me. So I've made a decision, I'm going to move in with my mother. She lives about an hour away from where I live now. Yeah, I have a boyfriend and a bestfriend I'm leaving behind. But this is temporary, in April my mother is planning on moving down here so I can still have my friends with me. I know, its pretty crazy and stupid, considering the process will take a month or so to do. And another 2 weeks for me to get moved in and situated in school. I just can't live here anymore. Its hard, too hard. I need my mom now more than ever. I haven't lived with her in 7 years and I think its called for some mom time. I know, everyone says I'm coming back! and most likely don't. Thats probably my biggest fear, because, it may be cliche to say, I love my boyfriend, more than anything in this world. He's really turned my life around, and brought me up on my feet when I needed him the most. And Of course I love my best friend, Keri. Shes my best friend, for a year now on Dec 16 (yeah we have a date, shh :x) And she's been there for everything, shes never judged me for anything I've ever done, and no matter the situation she helped, even if it meant having to walk miles, or spend all the money she's got. My mom said she'll take me down every weekend we're free to see them, and any breaks we have in between, So I don't necessarily mind, but I'm scared eventually I'll drift from both and lose them. They've really made huge impacts on my life and I couldn't lose two of the most important people in my life. They both have promised not to leave or walk away and they'll be there till the very end, but everyone worries a little, don't they?
Well this is my choice, its for me. I need to get my life in order instead of having my father throwing it in my face every time I mess up.
I'm going to be on my way now. :*
wow thats deep '
ReplyDeletei hope everything works out for you .
sometimes you just have to think of whats right for you and trust in yourself and the decisions your making .
im sure everything will be fine .
good luck !
madd love .
thank you :)
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