Lovely Bones

I sat online today...

I watched lovely bones. I have read the book, and although the movie is very different from the book, it was a good movie. But it made me wonder, do you ever ponder on what may be beyond us? Beyond this life? Beyond the rest? What happens when we finally close our eyes and rest in sleep for eternity. I realize people believe in certain religions for this very reason, but how can you keep telling yourself there is something beyond this point if we really don't know for sure? How can you live your whole life doing only what rules apply in your religion, but not really know for sure we'll end up where They say we'll be when we pass? Is there really a heaven? A hell? Is there an in-between, where we grow to move on from the past and proceed into what we call heaven? I mean, if you really think about it, dyeing is like sleep. But in this case, a sleep we never wake up from. How do you normally feel when you wake up from sleep? Tired, of course. But beyond that. Beyond that observation. How long did it feel like? In my view, it felt like 5 minutes. You can barley remember sleep, besides your dreams, but even those are only up to 15 seconds. Its like falling into darkness, blacking out, and awakening to the world once again. Is that how death is? We fall into the darkness one last time, but this time, not waking up is quite inevitable? Can we still think? Still believe? Still see, or breath? Do we see a light? It sounds cliche, but how many books and movies have based it on a light. Do we follow to what there is beyond? Or is that it? After the darkness there is no more. No more seeing, or breathing, thinking nor believing? What about the so called after life many speak of. Some say they want to be a bird, or a fish. Me? I'd want to be me again, just in another life, another situation, different circumstances, a new experience, but does that mean I must forget everything I learned once before in my old life? There are "new" souls and "old" souls upon this earth. Meaning some have lived a life before, and some were born brand new. Well, why do we have to forget the old stuff, the old circumstances, lessons, and mistakes? You know when your walking down a street, maybe crowed with hundred of people, or just one or two here and there, that split second where you see a face you feel like you once knew? But you know, there has never been a moment in your life you've ever even encountered this person. I dont nessisarily know where im getting at. But do you understand me?

Do you ever ponder on what may be beyond us? Beyond this life? Beyond the rest? What happens when we finally close our eyes and rest in sleep forever? Do we go into the in-between and proceed to heaven, or do we lay in the crevices of our own dead body underneath the dirt in darkness for eternity?